Salah........
Apa yang dia tanam selama ini salah. Sangat salah. Dia sebenarnya tidak
mau menanam. Tapi itu terjadi dengan faktor ketidaksengajaan. Dia
harusnya gak boleh seperti itu. Karena dia sendiri tidak mau
diperlakukan seperti itu. Apapun perasaan yang ada di hatinya saat ini
dan untuk orang itu adalah salah. SEMUA SALAH. Diapun harus berperang
dengan hati dan otaknya sendiri. sakit rasanya. terasa sesak di dada.
dunia terasa tidak berwarna. Datar. Sampai dia bingung harus berbuat apa
dengan hatinnya ini.
Secara egois dia gak mau kalah dalam permainan ini. Dia gak mau terpuruk
hanya karena perasaan ini. Dia gak mau hancur hidupnya hanya karena
persaan ini. Diapun harus mengubur perasaan ini. Harus. Sakit banget.
"Tuhan, kuatkan aku. Jika perasaan ini halal untuk aku mudahkan aku
untuk tetap memelihara perasaan ini tanpa ada halangan. Jika menurut-Mu
haram dan bukan untukku, tolong dengan sangat jauhkan dan mudahkan aku
untuk melenyapkan perasaan ini.Amin". Karena dia gak mau kalau perasaan
ini mengganggu hidup dia, impian dia, impian orang tuanya.
Capek. Itu yang dia rasakan. Pertarungan hatipun dimulai. Hatinya selalu
ingin merasakan persaan bahagia. Dan hatinya ini gak mau tau bagaimana
caranya dia bisa mendapatkan perasaan bahagia itu. Tapi dia juga punya
otak. Yang dipakainya untuk berpikir dengan realistis. Otaknya yang
berusaha menyadarkan hatinya untuk jangan hidup dalam mimpi-mimpi indah.
Secara kenyataan, gak semua hal terindah dapat ditemukan. Harus lebih
banyak perhitungan.
Akhirnya seperti ini. Hatinya menangis. Karena perasaannya berubah
menjadi sedih. Gak terima dengan semua ini. Dari awal otaknya sudah
menasehati hatinya untuk tidak memelihara perasaan ini. Hatinya gak mau
mendengar. Kemungkinan itu gak akan pernah ada. Teruslah berkhayal.
Semakin jauh hati ini akan merasa makin sakit. Sesak.
Mulai hari ini, buang perasaan itu. Buka lembaran baru yang lebih
berwarna. Jangan pernah lagi memelihara perasaan ini untuknya. Be
Realistic. Terkadang cinta itu tak harus memiliki. Sekarang tata lagi
hati ini dan cobalah untuk fokus ke hal lain yang lebih bermanfaat.
Masih ada cinta dari keluargamu, teman-temanmu, dan yang lain yang bisa
memberi cinta kepadamu tanpa mengharapkan balasan. Carilah sosok yang
bisa menerima hatimu ini dan mengizinkan untuk memelihara cinta kamu
untuknya di hatimu ini. Tanpa harus menahan rasa sakit.
Tuhan tidak pernah tidur. Jika saatnya tiba, Dia akan mempertemukan hati
kita ini dengan seseorang yang benar-benar untuk kita dengan caraNya
yang indah. Tanpa harus memikirkan logika dan realistis.....
salam selalu... always be stronger in anytime, anywhere... ^_^
(thanks yang sudah menginspirasiku untuk menulis ini....)
Wrong........
What she planted during this one. Very wrong. She actually did not want to plant. But that happens with the factor of chance. She should not be like that. Because she does not want to be treated as such. Whatever her feelings at this moment and for the people it is wrong. ALL WRONG. She too had to fight with the heart and the brain itself. hurt. tightness in the chest. the world was colorless. Flat. Until she was confused what to do with this heart.Selfishly she does not want to lose in this game. She got dropped just because of this feeling. She does not want her life destroyed because of this feeling. She too had to bury these feelings. Should be. Really sick. "Lord,
strengthen me. If the feeling is lawful for me I make it easy to keep
alive this feeling without any hitch. If according to thy haram and not
for me, so please keep it away and make it easy to wipe out the feeling I
ini.Amin". Because she does not want these feelings interfere the lives, dreams, dreams of her parents.
Tired. That's what she felt. The fight begins. Her heart has always wanted to feel happy. And her heart was not willing to know how she could get that happy feeling. But she also has brains. That she used to think realistically. Her brain is trying to resuscitate her for not living in beautiful dreams. In fact, not all beautiful things can be found. Should make more calculations.
End up like this. Her heart was crying. Because of her feelings turned into sadness. Not accepted by all this. From the beginning of her brain had advised him to not keep this feeling. Heart do not want to hear. Chances are it'll never exist. Keep on dreaming. The farther this heart will feel more pain. Tightness.Starting today, discard the feeling. Open a new page is more colorful. Never again to maintain this feeling for him. Be Realistic. Sometimes love is not a must have. Now the heart of this system again and try to focus on something more useful. Still any love from your family, your friends, and others who can give you love without expecting anything in return. Look for someone who can accept this and allow your heart to keep him in your heart you love it. Without having to bear the pain.God never sleeps. If the time comes, God will bring our hearts are with someone who is really for us with God's own way beautiful. Without having to think about the logic and realistic .....greetings are always ... always be Stronger in anytime, anywhere ... ^ _ ^(Thanks to've inspired me to write this ....)
Tired. That's what she felt. The fight begins. Her heart has always wanted to feel happy. And her heart was not willing to know how she could get that happy feeling. But she also has brains. That she used to think realistically. Her brain is trying to resuscitate her for not living in beautiful dreams. In fact, not all beautiful things can be found. Should make more calculations.
End up like this. Her heart was crying. Because of her feelings turned into sadness. Not accepted by all this. From the beginning of her brain had advised him to not keep this feeling. Heart do not want to hear. Chances are it'll never exist. Keep on dreaming. The farther this heart will feel more pain. Tightness.Starting today, discard the feeling. Open a new page is more colorful. Never again to maintain this feeling for him. Be Realistic. Sometimes love is not a must have. Now the heart of this system again and try to focus on something more useful. Still any love from your family, your friends, and others who can give you love without expecting anything in return. Look for someone who can accept this and allow your heart to keep him in your heart you love it. Without having to bear the pain.God never sleeps. If the time comes, God will bring our hearts are with someone who is really for us with God's own way beautiful. Without having to think about the logic and realistic .....greetings are always ... always be Stronger in anytime, anywhere ... ^ _ ^(Thanks to've inspired me to write this ....)
PS : Sorry my english still awful..:D
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